Happy Birthday, Sweet Boy!

The day has arrived, and I'm planning on going out to the cemetery this morning to put a "Happy Birthday" balloon on Jonathan's grave and spend some time remembering him. Justin's family is coming in tonight, and we are going to go again in the morning and celebrate Jonathan's life. Tough times, but like I said before, I want to celebrate my baby. But it is hard. Last night I had somewhat of a meltdown, and I'm not quite sure how the next few days will be, but I'm thankful to have family around. He wasn't just our son, he was their grandson, nephew, and cousin too, and we all are missing him so much today.

It is hard to know exactly how to feel today.

My friend Kristen sent me this poem after my last blog, and I think it is perfect for today. Thank you, friend for sharing it with me...

It's my first birthday in Heaven,
what a joy to partake.
My presents are flowers and rainbows
and angel food cake.

My crib is decorated with roses
and glitter.
And the stars that shine upon me
make everything shimmer.

The angels are dancing and
singing me songs.
Soon Jesus will be joining us.
It won't be long.

We'll all gather and pray
for our loved ones on earth
who love us and miss us
since the day of our birth.

You see, birthdays in Heaven
are full of happiness and cheer.
We celebrate with our loved ones
who preceeded us here.

Please don't be sad anymore
I've been at peace for one year.
Just love me and pray for me,
and shed not another tear.

Yes, birthdays in Heaven
are beautiful and gay.
One day we will celebrate together, for this moment Mommy and Daddy we pray.

I love you so much, my sweet boy. Jonathan Paul, I will never forget each and every moment I got to spend with you. You were beautiful and perfect, and you looked so much like your daddy. We miss you so very much, and can't wait for the day in Heaven that we get to hold you in our arms again!

Happy 1st Birthday!

Love, Mommy