Today is a day that had the makings of being a sad day for me. My first thought was that it is the end of Jonathan's presence here in our house, and I should be sad. Today is the day that a lady is coming to buy Jonathan's old (but brand new) furniture for her soon-to-be new grandson. It makes me a bit teary that this furniture set that I searched long and hard for, for my sweet boy, never got to be used by him. Justin and I lovingly put every piece together, placed it just right in his room, and ever stood over the crib, just imagining what he would look like in it. But...God had a different plan for our boy. And this furniture sat unused for two years, just a reminder of what we had lost.
But it's time...with our new sons coming, I'm happy to pass this on to another family, and I will pray that they will get to enjoy standing at the crib, and looking down at their son fast asleep in it. And...as I was thinking about all this--putting into perspective how I should really feel about letting it all go, I checked the delivery tracking of the two new cribs we purchased, and it said they were on the truck for delivery! And right this very second as I type this...UPS just drove up with our new cribs!!! I know we are decorating kind of early, but with the chance of bedrest for me towards the end, I want to have everything ready and actually get to be a part of the decorating!
So...today isn't an end after all...it is a new beginning!!! God is so good!!!
(And I can hardly wait for Justin to get home and put the cribs together!!! More pictures will come soon!)
6 comments:
that definitely has to be mixed emotions selling jonathon's bedroom set. I will pray for comfort for you today and I will think of Jonathon. He won't be forgotten and you can talk to me anytime about him. :) Love you! can't wait to see your new furniture!
God's timing for you on this brought tears to my eyes. He knew this would be a hard step for you, He truly is the Comforter! I can't wait to see the cribs you chose for Will and Jack. I love their names!!!!! Love you sweet friend.
I know how hard it is to feel like you are moving on. Just remember that Jonothan's precious memory does not live in a piece of furniture, but in your heart. I for one will NEVER forget your sweet boy!
OMGoodness!!! My heart literally stopped when I saw the title of this post!!! I thought something was wrong with the twins at first until I was able to read what you wrote! Whew! The timing of the furniture swap is amazing. It really shows how God wants you to see your life as full and not empty! I love you!
-Dara
wow...that is incredible...that the creator of our amazing world and vast universe cares so deeply for His children that He would make sure to the detail that your delivery would happen the same day as you were getting Jonathan's furniture ready to go bless another family...I have tears in my eyes. Alyson, your blog inspires me and reminds me daily that God is alive, and loves His children and deeply desires a relationship with us all. Thank you for being His voice and allowing the Holy Spirit to work through you!
Sounds like a bitter sweet day for you. Can't wait to see picture's of the nursery!
Nicole
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